and he didn't want it

Written on July 19, 2006 - originally....

"We're not here for a long time, we're here for a good time" This quote is by Tommy Lee that I read in the magazine yesterday and I like it very much....My very close friends know that I always get in trouble simply because if I feel like doing something I will and I don't care if I end up in some shit later...Life is just more exciting when you're in trouble, heheheh...Yes I'm stubborn and most of the times if you say:"Dee don't go there you'll hurt yourself" I will still go and hurt myself as much as possible only because you don't know what being alive feels like until you feel it with every inch of your body and soul...So what if I don't listen lol....But don't forget I will always be honest even if it freaks you out ;-))
Let me tell you I don't write these blogs because I'm bored. It just happens that these days interesting things happen to me and I LOVE writing about it. I'm a writer by heart and I always will be. I write everywhere....I love paper and pen:-)
For example, I had a terrible day at work yesterday. I felt like quiting and leaving all that shit behind me simply because I can do so much until I crash. And some people simply do not respect my time and the thing that I am doing my best but I can not do 10 things at once. I'm all over the place.
Today was much better and my production manager and sales manager are such good ladies especially production manager. Every time she passed by my desk today she would ask me if I am ok and if I ever need help or someone to talk with to come to her office.
Then one of our CSR ladies told me that she read an article this morning and thought of me. I was like what is the article all about and she said :"It's about taking risks and I want you to read it".....After our lunch break we went back to our desks and she gave me a white envelope with the article in it and a note where she wrote:"Dragana life is too short my dear. So take a risk...." and she wrote much more but I don't want to write it here:-). It put smile on my face when I read it.....It's more me being afraid to do something that I wanted to do for so long...
"Start scaring yourself".....Oh I will scare shit out of myself and enjoy the whole excitment that comes with it....
...With all the bad things that happend in my life I managed to do it all and I will do more...You have to be able to handle it or you will never be able to keep up......
We're here to have a good time indeed:-)
Thank you for putting a smile on my face.

AND the comment that Miki left on this blog and I liked it a lot was:

"This is what i don't get. You've been working there for a few months now and she knows what you're afraid of and I don't. I have some thoughts but i really can't think of many things that you are afraid to take a risk for. I can think of your dream to be a journalist and music one at that. That's the only thing i know that you've been hesitant about (there's a financial side to all of that of couse since nothing comes cheap anymore). That's all i can think of when it comes to your professional side but when it comes to your personal side i know one thing that you're little apprehensive about but i'm not going to say it out loud. lol"