spaced out

Weird. This life of ours. Life in our head. The one that we lead. The one we hope will end up like we planned. I went out last night. I was not in the mood really. Way too tired, kind of sad because one of my co-workers quit yesterday. Well I've been working at this company for over two months and she was one of those people that I thought I'm not going to like. AND then one morning we ended up going to Tim Hortons on our way to work and while talking with her I realized how cool she is. Extremely smart, educated, good looking and creative girl. I think at work some people were kind of angry that she was leaving mainly because she did a lot of work for them and people were dependable on her. But she did the job that was bellow what she was educated for. Answering phones is not something you do with master degrees. So she left yesterday and I tried my best not to cry. We exchaged the phone numbers and with hope that she'll stay in touch I wished her all the best and to have a good time in Europe (she's taking a trip with her boyfriend).

I hate good byes with passion.

What was really pathetic to me is that no one in the company made an announcment that she was leaving and to wish her good luck and thank her for all the work she did. I mean it was obvious that they needed her more than she needed them. The whole day I was under impression that the way she left and the way company handled it was not professional. At least you have to say farewell to your workers no matter how angry you may be that they decied to quit and leave for something better. After all she is happy now considering that all these months she felt miserable with the work she was doing.

I went to Velvet last night and did not enjoy it. I was spaced out most of the night. My mind seems to wonder away even when I'm at work. So last night I had few beers and got a little bit drunk just to the point where my head was spinning and I could barely stand, then I wanted to puke. Half of the group I was with were couples. I of all people hate going out with couples, well most of them, mainly because they are just attached to each other's hip and to me that is hilarious. You are with someone pretty much 24/7 at least when you go out with the group have fun and don't be all over each other like you didn't see one another for months. That kind of environment is not my type of having fun and it's not my crowd. Velvet plays shit music and I didn't like it a bit. I never really liked going there. It was only that first time that I went and had a great time but it was mainly because I met someone that I was in touch with for months and he made me smile. We had a blast talking.

At this time in my life I need something new, something with the meaning. I am not into dance clubs anymore. My mood is ruined just by being somwhere where DJ is playing a crappy music. It came to the point where what used to be fun few years ago is not fun anymore...it's simply boring...