Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Constantly weak from being


I hate with passion boring nine to five jobs with no flexibility. I'm trying to make myself get used to it but it's hard, very hard. Routine kills me from inside out..

I've been in a weird state of mind for few almost two months now....it got worse when I started my new job. I had some very bad days in the last couple of weeks that my friend Lally got worried when she read my last e-mail..
It's hard to explain really and if you never went through similar stuff you can't understand it and probably never will...I'm fighting my own demons...and it's been one long and tiring fight...Now when I'm not a kid anymore, now it gets really bad...Things that I kept inside for so long are coming out and I'm just trying to stay sane...
My life was and is like a movie...So many changes happend....so many will continue happening...and there are times when I feel like I'm just watching it all on the side...like a stranger..

4 comments:

Miki said...

Remember how many times i've told you that i feel like i'm here but i'm not really? So i guess consider yourself normal. You're at this age now where you want to settle the past, within you, and then move on onto the future completely cleansed. You've been through a lot of *hit in your short years and it's normal to feel confused, alone or even scared of the future. Fight your demons.You'll come out a winner.
Hugs, M

D said...

Thank you!! You're one of those rare people that I consider my family too not just my friend...

I also wanna say thanx (again) for reading all my blogs, you being the only person who cares enough to read and give your opinion...

You're amazing my dear in every possible way:-))

*hugs & kisses this hot bitch aka Chips Junkie aka Miki*

Miki said...

I would say now 'that's what friends are for' but i'll use that's what family is for because we are the twins after all. :)
I know it seems sometimes that i 'push' my opinion little too far but i think you don't mind. After all, we do agree on most of the stuff and react to things the same.
This Chips Junkie is eating a tuna sub and it tastes GOOOOOD! Njam...njam....what did you have for lunch?
HUGS HUGS HUGS and cmokas (lol), Miki

Miki said...

Glamoc! I was looking at the photo not realizing it was from back home. It looks nice!
hugs, M